Aug 19, 2013 5:00am EDT
was sitting there waiting for us to get ready for take-off. and it hit. it hit like the biggest storm ever. the sweat. the heart rate. the full-blown panic attack. and i just said to the stewardess, i said, "you have to get me off this plane. i am not going to be able to settle down." and then, like, i just started to scream, and i said, "you have to get me off the flight now, or we're gonnate pilot's gonna have to turn around and land somewhere, because i am not gonna be able to stay on this plane for 3/12 hours." and, i mean, i was embarrassed. i was crying, but i couldn't control the panic attack. the pilot said, "okay, fine. we have to get her off the flight." >> my mom would sit me down or tell me before i would leave that she might not be there when i got back. she would allude to the fact that she was going to kill herself. i thought it was my responsibility to make sure that those bad things that i feared did not happen, and that's when my panic attacks started. >> well, my self-esteem plummeted, and i lost all of my confidence. no independence. i just started to depend on people.